I love myself as much as a penguin loves an Ipod!

K as usual is up to no good but is just up to rubbish! So you have been warned!

S: u saw Twilight or new moon?

K: Twilight

S: aah thats boring, but novel is awesome

K: i tried reading that and dropped it!

S: they did not do justice to the novel, Shut up

K: maybe after reading Lolita nothing seems as good!, not even close!

S: i read Shantaram, it took me 1 month to complete it, i found it boring

K: you know shut up shouldnt be used so profusely! that tells me that u arent ready to take criticism. to like shantaram u gotta be living and experiencing mumbai! if u found it boring your loss :)

S: yes nothing amazes me after i read fountain head

K: there i concur too :) also atlas shrugged!

S: shantaram is just a life story, ne 1 can write it

K: try doing that :)

S: but fountain head is far much, my life is not so exciting

K: of course its in a different league all together! fountainhead

S: i gifted it to my best friend, but he found it boring, ha ha, diff people, diff views, he loved shantaram

K: exactly, but i love both a lot :), shantaram as well as fountainhead, writing is not easy at all, and when u read gems like these man,its impressive. its not easy to get into anybody's psyche, those who think its easy for them to do that, havent read lolita yet!

S: nope, whats it abt?

K: google

S: tu mere liye bata nahin sakta kya, i used to share lyrics with u

K: thanks for that

S: uske paise abhi tak nahin diye tune

K: and sorry for bothering you like that, but yes

S: yes u must be sorry, h ehe

K: lolita is about this guy who likes this girl, yeah i am sorry for a lot of things :)

S: nope, my list is much longer, every1 has their own

K: everyone has their own demons yes, sometimes the demeanour can be totally deceptive

S: i dont know abt this aspect, but i love what i m, most of the times i m very stupid, ha ha, yesterday only i behaved very stupid

K: i keep reading and listening to folks who say / write that 'you should love yourself'

S: stupidity is another term for me

K: i dont, i cant and i dont even want to, i am happy being neutral about myself

S: if u cant love urself the u can never love anyone else

K: existentialism is what i like

K: if u cant love urself the u can never love anyone else - untrue!

S: u must start loving urself

K: and i can argue that

S: dont argue, just try

K: i can love someone without loving myself!, its a plain simple fact

S: no it is not possible

K: you can say its not possible for you

S: i can give u an example

K: i can give u a reverse example!

S: first let me try

K: alright, give me a concrete foolproof example

S: i never used to take care of my health, i was depressed and had lots of problems, but after i started loving myself, taking care of myself, so first start loving urself, if u cannot make urself happy, u can never make others happy

K: ok loophole number one, this applies to you so you cant generalize, loophole number two - if u cannot make urself happy, here benchmarks of 'happiness' can differ, being content is being happy, being happy for being content is not = loving urself, from what i read above, it seems more like you accepted yourself as you are, and moved on, which is really good

S: nope i started loving myself, i took care of me, i never took care of my health, now i eat proper fruits, do yoga

K: so that way every doctor loves every patient, every fruitseller loves every fruit buying customer, every yoga teacer loves their students!

S: u can argue as usual, but i know that i have started loving myself

K: what i wanna tell you, and really wanna tell you in general too, is that try not to generalise statements, if one things works for you

might not work for others, its good if you are happy with urself, as i said that is really good

S: try to simplify ur thoughts, dont make everything complex

K: its as simple as i said it above

S: i was just sharing my exp

K: which is really good

S: y do u need to complex it, i was telling u all

K: as i have said above, it is really important to accept who you are

S: is to start loving urself, and there is nothing harm in doing so, just try it, i started loving myself for what i m, i dont want to demean myself, i tried to be honest with me, i know what is good for me

K: in this case, you are trying to differentiate I and ME

S: all these happened after i started loving msyelf

K: you think you are different I ME AND MYSELF

S: again, compex, just sharing thgts yaar

K: i appreciate it, really

S: y do u have to complex it

K: i dont complicate it, i just see what strikes me, like i said before, i never came to terms with this loving oneself business

S: u must, try it, just for one day, only for today, try it

K: i drink alcohol cause that relaxes my mind, so am taking care of myself

S: dont drink alcohol

K: will that do?, haha now who decides that

S: its worst thing that u can do to urself

K: i have decided to love myself by treating myself with alcohol

S: dont laugh

K: but who decides that?

S: i m damn serious, i m deciding

K: isnt it supposed to be I loving MYSELF

S: because i m telling u to do something, thats destroying, not loving

K: so i find happiness in destroying stuff, and thats more me than anything else, so there is happiness

S: thats not happiness

K: now again, who decides that?

S: me, dont drink alcohol, its mother of all evils

K: oh i always though loving oneself was a free-from-society and free-from-what-others-think business, well what i thought was wrong

S: yes

K: so i am in love with mother of all evils, then what? i can still love something right? back to square one :)

S: loving oneself means treating ur body with best

K: who said so?

S: treating urself with best

K: Best Scotch?

S: keeping urself surrounded amongst best people

K: who am i to decide who is best?, that is degrading people!, i cannot decide who is best and who is not

S: complexity has become a part of you my friend

K: cause i know what i am worth or not worth!, well its more or less realisation!

S: nope

K: and with realisation comes a lot of things

S: just try to simplify

K: you know S, what works for you wont work for everyone else, and its high time you realise that

S: again complexity

K: yes, am 26 and soon going to be 27

S: :-)

K: thats what i have learnt, and experienced, and seen, and observed, and felt, felt is the most important!,

S: but can u try to love urself just for one day

K: i cant even think about it :)

S: or u want to shut ur mind with all ur experiences

K: u got it wrong, here i dont shut it, i rather open to all possibilities :)

S: then can u try?

K: i-loving-myself ?

S: ye, love, not destroying, love as in what u will like to do for your loved ones, for ur parents, ur frens, just try to do what u look in them, do it for urself

K: how can i do what i like to do to others to me?

S: buy a flower for urself

K: wow

S: just like u wld buy for ur wife, i might be sounding stupid

K: but i am an environmentalist and i detest buying flower for myself business, see

S: but buy a flower just for urself

K: lemme give you an example

S: ok then plant a tree, just pour water in the plant

K: that i do everyday!

S: hmm buy urself a gift, drink a glass of fresh juice, listen to ur fav songs

K: all this can be done without loving yourself

S: watch ur fav movie, ha ha

K: and dont tell me that doing all this is loving urself

S: that means u love urself, then whats it

K: exactly look what i said just before

S: if u cannot take time for urself, then ur not in love with urself

K: so if i just take time out for a girl means i love her?

S: take time just for urself

K: is love that simple?

S: yes u cannot dedicate ur time until u love someone

K: NO

S: love is of diff types

K: oh yes

S: u cannot categorize love

K: yes, totally, so when i say I love to hate you, whats that

S: :-) complexities

K: no its simple, i hate you, and i love hating you, if you thinkg thats complex, and if you think love is easy, wow, You win and i lose

S: u only hate so much a person because u cannot stop thinking abt that, take a deep breath n relax

K: not really

K: i can hate someone cause i wanna hate someone, think / no think, not my idea for now

S: complex, complex

do u love me?

K: cool i see what u reply is just 'complex', i dont love me :)

S: complex

K: i cant love me

S: do u love me

K: i told you

S: do u love S?

K: i respect S, i like some antics

S: do you love S?

K: nope

S: hmm ok, simple, :-)

K: not loving someone is easy beta

S: just read the complexities u added, for this single question, the answer was simple yes or no

K: knowing why you love someone is difficult

S: compex

K: haha

S: try to avoid it

K: wish the world was a simple yes or no

S: complex

K: cool

S: avoid it,trust me

K: i dont want to!

S: trust me

K: i cant!

S: avoid complexities

K: not on this!

S: Trust me,just once

K: i cant capital-T-Trust you, i dont want to!, I am happy with complexities, i am content with complexities

S: but u dont seemed to be happy

K: i love these complexities

S: u always complaining

K: yes cause i am happy from my definition of happy not anyone elses!, i dont define me from what somebody tells me, :)

S: read this chat once more

K: that would be manipulating myself

S: b4 u write something, read this chat

K: i am not gonna write anything

K: u think your yes / no theory will move me melt me?

S: read

K: u think i was not reading?

S: read

K: cool, I love myself as much as a Penguin loves an Ipod, damn, why didnt i know this before

S: :-), complex

K: and yes, when i do share the chat i share with the world :)

S: simple

K: with permission of course :)

S: simple, dont complex it

K: are u telling me or urself, cause there is not use telling me :)

S: never say never

K: COMPLEX!, haha

S: :-), simple

K: and the circle completes

Golden Moon

Sitting by the lake, looking at the moons reflection, I see that
it is shining on a golden box that is immersed deep in the water.
Everything is from the past, one away in the sky, one deep below in the water.

I just look at the reflections. Reflections that echo the memories.

Some Words!

Well, i would like to thank 2 things for my twitter re-addiction! One being Buzz, the Google feature trying to emulate Twitter! Well really, I saw Buzz and that made me revisit Twitter. To find out whats happening over there! I Tweeted rarely before Buzz. :P Now.. Check my timeline :) Tweets60 on phone, Tweetdeck on laptop and Journotwit at work!

The Second thing is Nithyananda! Yes, here i go revisit Twitter and the next day i see #Nithyananda trending like a forest fire! And what amazing lines! Some of the folks out there on Twitter are so awesome! (For some select few lines from that day, follow this link.) There come these awesome trends that someone or the other starts and then there is a riot of Tweets. It is really funny and amazing. For real IPL fun (read bashing) do follow #ipl tag in Twitter or some of these awesome folks.

Here are some of my personal favourite Indian writers (who are awesome with fun, pun, sarcasm and humour!) on Twitter: @krishashok @rameshsrivats @mojorojo @prempanicker @OldmonkMGM @jhunjhunwala @i_r_squared @bigfatphoenix @gauravsabnis @SahilRiz @Envyas @sidin @stupidusmaximus @vencat @iyerdeepak @lavsmohan @greatbong

Note: These are some really funny Indians on Twitter!

So long. Tweet and Smile!

Song Set 2

So here is the next set of 5 songs that are amongst my favourites:

1) Seahorse by Devendra Banhart - This is one of the most awesome slow tracks i have heard. Kinda psychedelic , slow rock. Banhart's voice is really incredible. The most amazing line from this song is: 'Well I'm scared of ever being born again, If it's in this form again.' A song that really goes well with the blues! Banhart does remind me of the Great Jim Morrison at times! I keep listening to this song.

2) Roads by Portishead - They call this type of music as TripHop. I don't know about the genre, but this band and some of their songs are just heady. What with the psychedelic music, beats and Beth Gibbons voice! A very enchanting combination.

3) Have Love Will Travel by The Sonics and The Black Keys (Sonics cover) - I heard the Black Keys version before. This is one fun song. Bluesy version by the Keys of the song that talks about going to meet your fancy. Later when I checked the Sonics version it was tough for me to decide which one is better. My inclination is towards the Sonics though. :) Rocking song.

4) Orion by Metallica - Everyone knows Metallica, so i wont waste a lot of time and space talking about the great band! This is an instrumental song, beautiful song! Kirk, Cliff, James and Lars make this song so profoundly surreal, especially the orgasmic solo. Its really superb!

5) Hurt by Nine Inch Nails and Johnny Cash (NIN cover) - Again i heard the Cash cover before the NIN version. Both songs are out of the world! While Cash makes the song human, NIN's version is dark and eerie. Awesome set of lyrics. Moving and Deep. An all time favourite song while floating in the abyss.

The Sheep Story!

Once upon a time, there was lamb.. she wanted to be funny and a crowd pleaser... she spoke to Mary and they mutually decided to break up and cited irreconcilable differences in the local pedantic village drunk court. They got it and the lamb decided to move on.

Going ahead, she came to meet these bunch of dirty dancing, dark fluid loving gang of bangers and sheep lovers. So the lamb became a sheep. Now the question was, should that sheep just be a sheep or should she turn herself into Shahid Kapoor? So the sheep went to the gym, ran on the treadmill and worked her hair to be fluffy. Mind you, she tried very hard. Then as every story has a twist, this one didn't! It was pretty predictable. Sheep flaunted stuff and one by one lost respect of all the gangers... Now all fluffy and tired she decided to move on further. But Whatay, there the story tried to put a stop to itself but the sheep pushed back in.

So a classic case of Fata Poster aur Nikla Hero (or so called Hero). This is the part where the sheep tried, cried and decided.. Voluptuous is the way. Just like the Moto Moto dude in Madagascar two... she sang: I like em big, I like em chunky... those two adjectives btw were for the sheep itself. She is totally in love with herself now. She sings to herself, Now and Forever I will be your SheepMan.

So Sheep Sheep Sheep... If you haven't already started dreaming about the Sheep... and have become dewy (euphemistic alternative for another word)... Say hello to the day that makes no sense at all...

Sherry may or may not make merry.. but have you ever tried either?

Btw the sheep can outrun any runner... even if it is Rajnikanth!

PS: All characters appearing in this work are fictitious. Any resemblance to real persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental.

Light at the End of Paranoia!

I feel that our life is just like a day. If you wake up at noon, you will definitely miss the morning; but that does not mean that you won’t be able to catch up with the early risers for the late night movie.

I am convinced that you are right and I am a paranoid. - One of the best Quotes i have read!

That is one amazing post dude! Keep em coming!

Please read - http://bit.ly/a62zjg

PS: This is my 50th post... :P Dedicated to you Brother from China!

Might... Maybe and Not!

The hardest thing in life is letting go of what you thought was real. -Unknown

But then, how do you define reality? Perception? Illusion? Even though perceptions can make you sad and illusions can make you happy or vice versa. Till yesterday the castle of feelings was strong. Today it has become a castle made of cards. The winds of time and the winds of change just pushed the cards and scatter them into memories.

But then does that stop us from standing at the cliff to jump into water? To feel the exhilaration for the time before you hit the water? Then the plunge into cold water that freezes the adrenalin in an ecstatic way? I am ready to unleash myself. Why? Just because the madness is peaceful, just because I don't want to inhibit myself. I am crossing the thin line from rationality to the little known place. The place where clarity speaks for itself. Where numbness is the surreal music that plays and where darkness is the light that shines and makes every feeling shine like reality.

But then, why all this stupid garbage talk? Why? Why can't I run away to you? Why can't I shake you up and tell you don't let go of our feelings, don't let go of the connection that we have. Don't say its past and you don't know where to go from here. Bury me away, but don't replace what we built. Keep me alive as I have cherished you. Every day, every moment. The senses... the perceptions... and the feelings... nothing can take it away. Let a snake charmer come, charm you away... but remember the concoction of our poisons... you know, as much or more than I know... nothing can take that away. No one can take that away.

But then was it real? Yes. Was it just an escape? No. It was something pure and true... in its simplest form. Why did it not last? Maybe it was not supposed to. Something as precious... got rusted. Who is to blame? Circumstances? No. Where do we go from here? Our own trails. What if our paths cross again? Haha... Hope you at least try to melt a stone that I might become then! Might... Maybe and Not!

Name with a Link.

Time sips a lot of feelings away. Seasons dry up the moisture from the ripe passion called life. Eventually what remains is a name on a popular social networking website that can be clicked to find updates. These updates arouse different set of feelings though. But that is initially... eventually everything is just news... or facts as I prefer to put it.

Just like all celebrities who put up their thoughts about happenings around, some facts come as just happenings. All you can do is say: 'Oh is that so'. Sometimes just a sigh... What causes this change? Why is it that Time changes everything? Something that was possibly very strong and intense just dries up... as Saltaire has said, "Time, that remorseless thief" (http://sharepoetry.com/poem/51254).

Eventually everyone carries on... Only Memories, Poetry and History remains... Time keeps on changing. And all we do is click the Name with a link, see the new friends, new photos, new flames, new status messages... and keep adding vacuum to the existing void. Plastering the wounds soon buries the feelings. Man is not just inventing robots, Man is becoming one! Tomorrow Robocop will feel more than what I do. Maybe...

Till then, let me explore if the autumn and the fallen leaves on the road make me feel poetic so that I can write at least 3 lines... The heat as it makes us yearn for cold water... makes me yearn for the cherished memories... Familiar smiles, Familiar feelings... Till then...